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91. Growing up Seventh-Day Adventist (Melissa Duge Spiers' Story)

Melissa Duge Spiers grew up Seventh-day Adventist in a world shaped by strict rules, purity culture, and expectations of what it meant to be a good Christian woman. We ta

90. Youth Camps & Megachurches (Ellie's Story)

Youth camp was Ellie’s happy place. She made memories with friends, had powerful emotional experiences, and led worship. But after getting involved in a megachurch, she b

89. Mica Miller & the Death of the Pastor's Wife

CW: Domestic Violence, Sexual Abuse, and Discussion of Suicide After many requests to talk about Mica Miller's story and Netflix's Death of the Pastor's Wife, Rihanna (@

88. Conversion Therapy Dropout (Timothy Schraeder Rodriguez's Story)

Timothy Schraeder Rodriguez had a passion for ministry, but after a trusted youth pastor discovered his internet search history, he was shamed and forced to leave his chu

87. How Church Taught Us to Distrust Our Bodies with Samantha Redondo

What happens when you've been taught not to trust your own body? Somatic therapist Samantha (@spiritualembodiment) joins me to explore how purity culture, charismatic Chr

86. Rapture Anxiety, the Pressure to Be Pure & Starting Over (Rebecca's Story)

Rebecca grew up afraid of hell, the rapture, and stepping outside of God’s plan. From the pressure to remain pure to a pastor refusing to marry her after she “fell into s

85. Church, Hollywood & Reclaiming Intuition: Part 2 (Katie's Story)

Part 2 of 2 CW: sexual assault Katie Stone spent her teenage years trying to be the perfect Christian girl, learning to cover herself up, follow the rules, and trust sp

84. Church, Hollywood & Reclaiming Intuition: Part 1 (Katie's Story)

Part 1 of 2 CW: sexual assault Katie Stone spent her teenage years trying to be the perfect Christian girl, learning to cover herself up, follow the rules, and trust sp

83. Youth Pastors Gone Wild with Jeremy Steele

Welcome to the first Friday Drop!  Every other Friday, I'll be bringing you conversations, behind-the-scenes stories, and bonus episodes. To kick things off, I'm joined

82. Losing the God I Was Given | The Gardening Theologian: Part 2 (Ciarra's Story)

Part 2 of 2 This week, I'm joined by Ciarra, also known as The Gardening Theologian. Raised in a conservative Christian environment, Ciarra learned early to suppress he

81. Losing the God I Was Given | The Gardening Theologian: Part 1 (Ciarra's Story)

Part 1 of 2This week, I'm joined by Ciarra, also known as The Gardening Theologian. Raised in a conservative Christian environment, Ciarra learned early to suppress her

80. YWAM, the Smartphone Prophet, and Bizarre Acts of Faith (Hannah's Story)

After taking a break from college, Hannah joined Youth With A Mission (YWAM), where she immersed herself in charismatic Christianity. In this episode, she shares what  th

79. From Amish to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (Jeffrey’s Story)

Jeff was raised in an Amish household before his family joined the Mennonite church. Years later, he found himself at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, hoping for a

78. The Voice, Deconstruction & Coming Out After Purity Culture (Jordan Rainer's Story)

Jordan Rainer (The Voice, Team Reba) joins me to share her journey from Southern Baptist purity culture to deconstruction. We talk about suppressing feelings, navigating

77. Everything Was A Punishment From God (Shelly's Story)

*CW* emotional abuse, suicidal ideation, parentification Shelly grew up believing that every hardship had a spiritual explanation. After her parents' dramatic conversion

76. The Bible Led Me To Atheism | Eve Was Framed (Promise's Story)

Promise, known as Eve Was Framed, was raised in charismatic Christianity where speaking in tongues, prophecy, mission trips, and supernatural experiences were a normal pa

75. My Youth Pastor Dad Had an “Affair”... At Least, That’s What They Told Me (Carley’s Story)

Carley grew up as the daughter of a youth pastor and has many fond memories of church, faith, and family. But when she was young, her parents sat her down and told her th

74. What Purity Culture Never Taught Us About Women's Bodies | ft. Azriél Patricia & Dr. Ashley Jeanius

Did purity culture leave you with more questions than answers about your body? In this episode, I sit down with Azriél Patricia and Dr. Ashley Jeanius for an honest conv

73. Raised Pentecostal: Hell, Healing, and Heartbreak (Bailee’s Story)

Bailee was raised as a pastor's kid in the Pentecostal church, where speaking in tongues, prophecies, and miraculous healing were part of everyday life. She was taught th

72. God Told Me To Marry Him (Ashley’s Story)

*Content warning: emotional abuse, animal abuse* Ashley, co-host of Praise Be To Pod, didn't grow up deeply religious. After attending youth camps as a teenager, she dov