night night bitch: esoteric stories for sleep and meditation

where I've been (and the future of this podcast)

I haven’t posted on this feed since April 2025. In that time, I became a mother. And I went underground to build something. For years, I told you stories to help you sle

the hidden spiritual meaning of cinderella

There’s a reason the story of Cinderella lingers in our bones. Beneath the soot, the glass slipper, and the pumpkin-turned-chariot lies an ancient memory. A memory of the

womb wisdom: a meditation for trusting your body during or before childbirth

In this deeply nurturing guided meditation, I invite you on a transformative journey that transcends the mere biological aspects of pregnancy and childbirth. This is a sa

midsommar mysteries: unveiling the secrets of the summer solstice and litha

Have you ever wondered about the true magic behind the summer solstice? Join me for a mesmerizing journey into the heart of Litha, also known as Midsummer, as we uncover

fundamental errors in modern occultism (rare 1924 lecture by manly p. hall)

Join me as we delve into a rare and enlightening lecture by the legendary scholar and mystic, Manly P. Hall. In this episode, I will be reading Hall’s 1924 lecture titled

the handless maiden part 4: wandering and waiting + the inner marriage

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic

the handless maiden part 3: love in the underworld + the devil returns

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic

the handless maiden part 2: dismemberment + entering the forest

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic

the handless maiden part 1: healing a dark night of the soul + a deal with the devil

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic

mysteries of the magdalene: the ark, the stone, and the triple goddess

This episode plunges into the depths of the Rennes-le-Château mystery, where Berenger Saunière, a seemingly modest priest, unearthed secrets that could redefine our under

awakening the divine power within

In this episode, I invite you on a soothing journey into the essence of your being, where the hidden bindings of self-perception are gently unraveled. As you settle in fo

the emerald tablets of thoth: unveiling the halls of amenti

Join me as together we delve into the profound wisdom of the second tablet from The Emerald Tablets of Thoth, titled "The Halls of Amenti." These ancient texts, attribute

rosicrucian affirmations for spiritual alchemy

This guided visualization ritual explores the psychological benefits of Rosicrucian affirmations for inner transformation. These affirmations are not mere words but keys

american alchemy pt 3: denouncing witchcraft while embracing the occult

In this final episode of our American Alchemy series, we explore the term 'The Christian Alchemists' coined by Walter Woodward, encompassing a diverse group of practition

american alchemy pt 2: witch hunts and the invisible college

In this second episode of our three-part American Alchemy series, the focus shifts to John Winthrop Jr. and the culmination of his alchemical endeavors in New London. Act

american alchemy pt1: huguenots, hermetics, and the new world

In the first part of this three-part series, join me on a fascinating exploration of America's hidden history, delving into the convergence of alchemy, mysticism, and ear

mindful surrender while crossing the abyss

Embark on a mystic journey on crossing the abyss. In this episode, we unravel the profound insights gained from Frater Archer’s deliberate encounter with divinity. Explor

st. francis of assisi: mystic and animal communicator

In this episode, we delve into the captivating life of the venerable mystic, St. Francis of Assisi. Join me on a journey through the opulent streets of medieval Assisi, w

the black madonna: 'we come from and are contained by this darkness'

Get ready to unlock the secrets of a powerful and enigmatic figure: the Black Madonna, a symbol of divine femininity, has captured the imagination of spiritual seekers fo

death and rebirth: the mysteries of the autumn equinox

Have you ever wondered about the *real* meaning of Halloween? Unlock the ancient mysteries of Autumn with me as we dive into the cross-cultural celebrations of the Autumn